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Our Foray into an Open Relationship

By April 4, 2017 August 14th, 2017 Swing Lifestyle Articles
Open Relationship

I think the obvious place to start when you plan on sharing intimate details of your marriage and sex life is with an introduction. I’m Amber, I’m 29 and I’ve been married for seven years to my awesome husband who I adore completely. We have two kids together, I’m a stay at home mother, my husband is an engineer and we pay our taxes. I always kid that on paper, we are as ordinary and white bread as it comes.

But in reality, we are both free spirits, with a thriving sense of adventure and non-conformity. So when my husband presented me with the idea of having an open marriage, specifically to try out a polyamorous lifestyle, I was hesitant but secretly excited. Because let’s be honest, after eight years of being with the same person it’s not surprising that sex becomes a bit….mundane. We weren’t making intimacy a priority and the sex we were having was lackluster. We knew what worked, so we got to the end goal as quickly as possible. Our sex life had been hampered by parenthood and life and it was taking its tole on our relationship.  We were both bored, mildly unsatisfied, and looking for something to stimulate us.

We started this thing all in. We had no boundaries, loads of expectations and a good heaping of manic energy. So of course it was a rough start. Navigating the world of “an Open Lifestyle” can be overwhelming. Polyamory, swinging, threesomes, friends with benefits, free passes all fall under the header of an open relationship. Starting out we had some experiences with open play; a sorta foursome when we were in college, a partner swap after we had our first child, drunk kisses with other people. Instead of taking our times and acclimating to the new feelings that having an open relationship brings we dived in head first. Flash forward a couple weeks in and I’m calling him on his way to a date, sobbing and hysterical. He had to cancel his date, end his relationship with the woman and we had to have a complete re-textualization of what we were doing.

Take my advice, start slow. Set boundaries for yourself and your partner that you both agree on. Be prepared to talk, a lot. In fact be prepared to talk more than you and your spouse have ever talked before. Because the reality is you will feel loads of FEELINGS,  and the only way to work through them and not implode your relationship is to talk through them. Inform yourself. More and more people are discussing their experiences and what they’ve learned. Read what they’ve written, listen to podcasts and youtube videos. Knowing all the options helps you decide which path is right for you and your partner.

It took loads of false starts, canceled dates and conversations to set up a situation that worked for us. That’s when things finally started to get comfortable. Poly wasn’t working, so we downgraded the relationships we could have to friends with benefits. We agreed on once a week dates, a curfew, a few romantic don’ts (like hand holding and oral sex), and had calmed down enough from the initial manic burst that we could talk through issues without going haywire.

For my part, going on dates was fun. And really good for my self esteem. Going out with different people, getting to know them and hear their stories was interesting. As a couple what we got out of the experience was invaluable. We realized all the ways we had drifted apart, things we were sharing with each other, areas of our relationship that needed healing. Sometimes you don’t realize the cracks until there is pressure. Issues would crop up and it would be like a lightbulb going off. That’s right, we have these issues in all these other areas because we don’t listen clearly to each other, or we don’t take enough time to appreciate each other. My husband told me that he never really appreciated what he had until he met other women. We met and married young and there wasn’t a lot for comparison. But all of a sudden he started to really see me. To notice the little things I did for him, to notice my quirks and the things about me that he had fallen in love with. I felt so wonderful, so loved by him. And not “even though” he was seeing other women but BECAUSE he was.

And our sex life, oh boy. It has done wonders. As a mother it was especially liberating. I had put my sexuality on the back burner for years while I breastfeed, stayed up late rocking little ones, potty trained and dealt with skinned knees and tantrums. Even though we had exited that stage I was still stuck in that mentality, stuck in the idea that sex couldn’t be more than a quickie before bed. I can only assume a certain territorialism overtook me but I wanted him all the time. We made sex a priority, an activity we did after the kids went to bed. We literally exhausted ourselves. And because of all that talking we were doing we discovered and rediscovered sexual fantasies that we hadn’t talked about in years.

In a very anti-climatic way we are not actively engaging in an open relationship right now. But we tried it. With two kids, two side business and a full time job we decided we didn’t have the energy to continue. Balancing other people, time constraints and the emotional weight and time that jealousy takes to process proved to much for our life in its current state. So we put a semicolon on the experience and tabled it for another time. Because the thing about relationships is they need room to grow, to stretch and try things. Holding a rigid mentality that we either are or aren’t doesn’t allow us the space to try new things or to decide those things didn’t work out for us. We’ve already joked about the point when the kids are teenagers and we have more spare time for dating.

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  • Lynn says:

    Hi Amber,

    Thanks for sharing your story, as that brings a new and real world look at relationships in general. I think you guys are amazing to have grown through what you went through together, and took that adventure together. Worked through what did and didn’t work, and realized the value in that experience itself, without locking yourselves into yet another situation that wasn’t fulfilling what you needed.

    It sounds to me, like you guys are a great fit for each other, and seem willing to work together to find the right combination that works for you, and aren’t afraid to adjust it when needed.

    Wishing you all the happiness you deserve.


  • kelly says:

    Thank you for sharing your experience. As someone new to the open relationship world, it helps to hear what others have experienced, and what has worked and hasn’t. So thank you for your honesty.

  • Kief says:

    Good for you two, my wife and I first started by me getting her three women for her 40th surprise birthday as I watched. She loved it, then we got her a man and myself so she was comfortable, she was shocked and loved it. I recorded her with him and of course we watch it a couple of times a month and get off on it. We joined a private swinger club a couple of states away and went to a swingers night club. We had a blast but we are taking a break as we are getting ready for our daughter’s graduation from Duke Univ and we have one more at home. It is a good break. We will ramp back up for the summer. Good luck guys.

  • Raul says:

    Everybody we are in the same situación

  • Lowell says:

    Wow! A very wholesome, honest, open talk about one couple’s partial journey into polyamory. It sounds as though they will return when they are ready—and more importantly they now have the insight & tools to know themselves & their boundaries so that they may wisely put this lifestyle in its proper place, at this time, in the overall flow of their lives together. In working on well thought-out boundaries—but ones that are pliable enough to allow for future growth over time—this couple has deepened, and reawakened those miraculous elements of the original joy they had from their earlier relationship.

    The common denominator to make a poly or the swing lifestyle work for monogamous couples appears to include the recurring action themes of: concerted or active-listening & hearing one’s partner; honestly assessing/ critiquing oneself in order to gain further insight into self and/or relationship dynamics; and managing/processing emotions constructively—with respectful and timely treatment, as they are often due. Counterintuitively, a foray into poly & swing LS’s seem to produce a shared and deepened love & respect for your partner, yourself, and your primary relationship.

  • Mr Jones says:


    Thanks for being so honest and open with your life story, the ups, downs, and ups again will undoubtedly help others start and navigate their exciting adventures!

  • Jackie, John, Amber & her husband…

    You four knocked it out of the park again! Thank you Amber for this real raw story and great learning experience! And thank you Jackie/John for sharing it here! I LOVE this quote by Robert Frost, speaking about difficulties or “perceived” impossibilities, perhaps even in dealing with fluid human behavior and feelings! Hahahaha! It is certainly an exciting journey into mysterious, invigorating, unchartered territory! Here’s the quote I find appropriate:

    The best way out is always through.

    I liken the concept — Amber’s and life in general — to all the imaginary dragons sailors and captains thought were out there in the vast oceans of the earliest seafarers before the end of the Golden Age of Exploration/Colonization. With stunned eyes and gaping mouths, the seamen realize that now that they are actually IN those ‘forbidden, death-ridden’ seas… there’s nothing here but friendly dolphins, albatross and seagulls, and the usual spout-spewing whales! Hahaha. What a bizarre imagination we humans have of the UNknown! Right?

    Bravo Amber! Bravo to you and your husband and to ALL couples and singles that dare to challenge their own (unfounded?) fears!!! (huge smile and applause!)

  • Sahaja says:

    What a wonderful and honest recounting of the open relationship by Amber. Wish more couples would be so honest to express their thoughts about sexual fulfillment within a marriage by stepping outside of its boundaries dictated by our society. Monogamy has been so drilled into our psyche that most couples are reluctant to try sex outside of marriage. But once a couple openly tries sex with another partner by swapping partners in and out of bed, a whole new vista opens up. That has been our experience and of several couples we have been privy to engage in their experience. Just recently, we met several of our friends before marriage and openly discussed their foray into nonmonogamy. That was an eye opener to open up to mutual experiences and then actually engage in full swap partner exchange for sexual intercourse with someone other than your own mate or regular sex partner within marriage.
    Amber, thank you again for opening up and giving this lifestyle this day of light honestly and with an open mind. We have shared this story with some of our friends and they have been grateful to Amber so they can openly discuss nonmonogamy with their married partner and actually try and experience open marriage.


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